I know what I'm giving thanks for!

I'm on thanksgiving break right now. There are many things at this point that COULD bring me down, like the fact that it's the holidays so everyone is getting cuddly and insufferable and there are lots of movies out about couples getting together on christmas and kissing at midnight and all that. But luckily, there are way more things to be thankful for than there are to be bummed about(despite what the evening news would have us think...).I shall count my blessings one by one:
1. My loving supportive family.
2. Specifically my parents that would lay down in traffic for me if I needed it.
3. My precious nephew
4. My sweet little doggie Suzie buttons
5. That I have a job in THIS economy
6. That I have a job I LIKE and can take pride in
7. That I have a job that allows me to do other things I like such as travel, and take leisure time
8. That I get to perform
9. I'm in good health
10. I live in a nice apartment with a roommate that can stand me
11. I have a nice reliable car
12. I have talented children
13. I love my church
14. I love my church choir and director
15. I'm thankful that I have the means to get nice clothes and accessories for myself.
16. I'm thankful that I have several different interests that keep me busy
17. That there is a loving God looking out for me and thinking specifically of ME
18 That that God sent his son to die on a cross to save me from all my bad choices
19. That his son Jesus is with me all the time guiding my steps
20. I'm thankful that in good times, and even in times of grief, sadness, depression, etc, Jesus sits with me and comforts me

I'll stop there for now. I have a lot to be thankful for. So I'll try to constantly remind myself of these things and not let Satan remind me of the one thing always hanging over my head...

Boy B is a goner

So, it's over between me and Boy B. As it turns out...he's NOT the sweet respectful Christian man I thought he was. VERY much so... Even though we had had SEVERAL very open blunt conversations about the s-e-x word, and I made it very clear I am going to wait, he said he agreed and respected me more for it, even saying he feels better about this relationship than any others because we're holding each other accountable and making the relationship Christ-centered. Without going into too much detail...as it turns out...he was lying to get into my pants. Pathetic. That's like 18-yr-old high school crap!! He's a grown man and he can't keep it in his pants!!!

After that information came out about him, I shut it down real quick. I'm still so confused because ..."outside the bedroom" he was so sweet to me! He almost worshipped me! He was already planning things with me and talking about the future and everything. And I never took him as a man that had that little self-control. Absolutely pathetic.

Luckily, in my current emotional state I am VERY drawn to God and my family. If showing me that every other man is a douche is His way of romancing me, then it's God for the win!!

So anyway, here I am. Back to square one. I've only got one more month to go til my 6-month guarantee kicks in. I'm debating at this point whether I should take it. It's just six more months of non-husbands, awkward dates, sibling-listing, relationships you think will make it but only last 3 weeks because your boyfriend is a liar, in short...6 more months of failure. As loser-y as I feel at the moment, I can't imagine how I'll feel at the end of 6 more months of this...

But I do like free stuff...

Update

So, according to facebook, I've been "in a relationship" with Boy B for almost 2 weeks. It's weird though because even though God has given me what I "want," I don't feel like it's what I really "need." My head is constantly spinning with this guy wondering how he's feels about me, how I feel about him, if this will go anywhere, if he could actually be "the one," and so on. You know...all those questions you ask yourself at the beginning of any relationship. It's been such a weird transition, and I blame being single for so long. I've gotten so used to being on my own time table, being in my own place, and just basically not having to think about anyone but myself.

He's such a great guy. He has so many wonderful qualities that ARE things that I'm looking for. He's a Christian(who is actually concerned with what GOD wants for his life...), he's got a master's degree, a good stable job, a nice family, he LOVES to travel and has been all over the world, and I suppose most importantly, he treats me so well. He really likes me and goes to great pains to make sure I'm ok, and to make sure I know he's thinking about me(which is a HUGE deal for me!!). He really is great. I just want him to be happy with me. But let's face it...I can be a PILL.